After 3 very early miscarriages we were very excited to get past the 12 week stage, unfortunately our world came crashing down around us when I found out I had an incompetent cervix and went into labour at 19+5 our little princess was born. At the time I didn't want to hold her I didn't want it to be real looking back it was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Fast forward 10 years I discovered huggable hearts and got one made for Courtney. When it arrived I just held it and broke down but I also felt lighter. I felt like I needed to feel that weight to have closure. Every year on her birthday her heart gets lots of cuddles and when not being snuggled it lives with her keepsakes on display. Thank you huggable hearts for the amazing things you do to help so many xxx
– Ange & Logan Griffin
Taylor James & Charlie
I lost my first boy at 19 weeks gestation. His heart stopped beating at 16 weeks. His name is Taylor-James. I remember ordering my Huggable Heart. I knew it would not be very big or heavy but it was perfect. I sleep with it every night. It was my way of holding onto him. He was not with me anymore and it gave me so much comfort and still does. I went into lose another wee boy named Charlie at 15 weeks on the 27/01/17 and I ordered a heart for him also and love it just as much.
My hearts were such a precious gift and something I will hold onto forever. Thank you.
- Kelly Woodhouse
On the 15 April 2014 I gave birth to Elizabetta, she was born at 16 weeks gestation and is our 7th child. I suffered a heavy bleed after she was delivered and was given medication to control the bleeding. The medication made me nauseas and the blood loss made me faint. I battled to stay conscious and be 'present' knowing I had very little time with Elizabetta. I tried to remember every little detail I could but my body and brain were trying to recover from the shock and blood loss.
When I received my Huggable Heart, I was taken by surprise with how heavy it felt. It was then that I realised I had barely held Elizabetta. She had been placed in a little cardboard casket and we were told she was 'too fragile' so I had never hugged her, she just mostly lay on the table beside me as I was too weak to hold her.
I hold her Huggable Heart on my chest to imagine what holding Elizabetta might have felt like and my next youngest daughter would often take it to bed when she was missing her sister. It's comforting to know the heart has come from another baby loss mum who understands the journey I'm on and how important tiny reminders of our babies can be.
- Karen Prisco
On 6 May 2015 we completed our family with the birth of our beautiful daughter Georgia Grace. Sadly Georgia wasn't for this world and was born sleeping at 21 weeks. Georgia was born at 8.45pm @ North Shore Hospital. A perfectly tiny 265g. Georgia was found to have had Intrauterine Growth Restriction and a hole in her heart. Our pink spotted fleece heart arrived a few months later and is shared at night between our boys Luke and Alex. A truly welcome gift.
– Sian and Scott Palmer
In June 2011 my baby boy Alex passed away when I was 27 weeks pregnant, he was born still. My husband and I got to spend quite a few hours with him after he was born and we created many memories. He weighed 2lb 2oz and was 37cm long.
During the six years since he died I have always sought ways to remember him so I share the memories that I have with my two living children.
The Huggable Heart that I have is one of my favourite items that I have to remember Alex. It was made to weigh the same as he did at birth. I chose the material that our heart is made of.
Thank you so much, I love my heart.
– Stacey Smith
My husband and I had been told we wouldn't be able to conceive naturally (due to my age), So while we wanted another (We had 3 between us from previous relationships) We decided not to become one of 'those couples'. Six months later just after moving into our new house we found out we were pregnant. A miracle! We were so excited, as were the kids, and found out at our 20 week scan we were having a boy! A short time after that things started to go wrong, and at 22 weeks on 11/11/11 I was admitted to hospital for observation as I was bleeding and they couldn't see why. My waters broke in the middle of the night two days later, I was just over 22 weeks, but I believed in hope and we hung on. Sadly after another couple of events our baby, Koby passed on 17/11 and was born in the early hours of 18/11/11. Nothing in this world can prepare you for giving birth to your baby who does not cry. This is not what is supposed to happen, and it grief and pain I felt is something beyond anything I could have imagined. We brought Koby home to meet his siblings, and his funeral was several days later. Arranging a funeral for your little baby is something no one should ever have to do. The thing with losing your baby, no longer having them physically with you, is that you still want to parent them. You still want to do things for them, and because of them, you want to make their life worthwhile, make it mean something. You want people to remember.
Its been 5 years since losing my baby. I still collect things for him, still buy him presents. And Still remember him. Andrea at Huggable Hearts offers a wonderful service making her gorgeous hearts for people. The heart she made us for Koby is beautiful...She kindly made it out of a wee outfit that my husband bought for Koby, for my birthday! This had been very special to us, and I'd been wanting to get something made with it for a long time, so when I discovered Andrea could make the heart out of it, it just seemed perfect. Having the heart made to Koby's weight, is just amazing. Sometimes, it seems like he wasn't real, that the memories are fading. I can look at photos and know of course that he is, but holding the heart, and feeling his weight is really lovely, and comforting as well.
– Susan Coram-Stanley
On the 5th of January 2015 at our 12 week Nuchal Translucency Scan some concerns showed up so on the 8th of January we went and had a CVS (Chorionic Villus Sampling) done. Results on the 9th confirmed Turner Syndrome. Our wee girl had a 2% chance of surviving. Turner Syndrome is a chromosome disorder that occurs in 1 in 2500 pregnancies. And only in girls. We were given the option of a medical termination or to wait for our baby to die naturally. We chose to let nature run its course as I personally was holding onto that 2% possibility although the words we had been told were "the outcome looks very grim for bubs".
Over the next 7 weeks we had fortnightly scans to check our wee girl Estelle. Each one got harder and harder as deep down we knew it was only a matter of time before we would hear those dreaded words.
At a routine midwife appointment on the 23rd of February it happened, they couldn't find her heartbeat. So off for a scan to confirm. And those words. "I'm sorry".
Two days later on the 25th of February at 3.55pm Estelle Jane was born. 18cm long and 285gm. The next few weeks are a blur. We were busy shifting house and towns so I kept busy packing and being a Mum to our two older girls. After shifting had settled down the reality of what happened crept back in and I felt so very alone so I reached out on the Sands FaceBook page to see if there was anyone who had been through the same thing. That's where I found Andrea. Our stories were so similar it was heart breaking and heart warming all at once. Even though I knew what Andrea had been through I still didn't know what to say to her. Turned out that Andrea made Huggable Hearts and offered to make and send me one. It never fails to amaze me when I hold my Heart that that was Estelle's weight as my memory of that has faded. I know what she looked like as we took lots of photos but to remember how it felt to hold her makes Huggable Hearts just that much more precious.
I am forever grateful to have found Andrea. And what she does for other families going through one of the most painful things anyone can go through is very special. Huggable Hearts is a wonderful organisation. Thank you for letting me share our story.
- Hannah Jones
I received a huggable heart for my angel Cody born at 22 weeks weighing 320 grams and 26cm long in October 2014. He lived for 1hr and 20 mins and passed away in his daddy's arms. Cody was our first born and losing him broke me but getting to spend some time with him meant the world to us as we had no idea if he would be born alive. We received a blue heart with polka dots and being able to hold it brought me such comfort. Cody now has a little brother who will be able to hug his brothers heart and learn all about him. Thank you so much from the bottom of our hearts.
- Sara Hunt